Wallowing in sentimentality

I. The most beautiful thing I've heard in a long time: myself, singing "Happy Birthday" to Miss T. We just had a tiny little celebration at home—a frosted cream puff with a "1" candle played the role of the cake. Beaker was about to go inpatient, and it just wasn't the right time for a party. We took pictures of our little sweetie bathed in the golden glow of the sunset and glazed with chocolate goo.

II. Driving home from the hospital tonight I listened to Prairie Home Companion. The part where Garrison reads out his audience members' wishes for their dearest alternated crazily between the just-married and those past their 90th birthdays, but in the middle there was a couple who'd flown to St. Paul to celebrate their twentieth anniversary. Twentieth, I thought, I want to have a twentieth anniversary. We're more than halfway there, we're years and years past what I'd dared to hope for when we married—and Miss T. would be all of nine then.

III. Beaker gets lung function tests Monday. If he's doing better, then he stays for more treatment. As long as there's improvement from the antibiotics, then they keep on administering them. Plateau equals go home. So I have to hope he stays for a while yet.

IV. So far as I know, no doctor has ever brought up lung transplantation with Beaker. The Times tells me that they've recently redone the way they run the lung waiting list, in ways that make it easier for people with CF to get organs. This must be good news, right? But it simply highlighted the fear behind my hopes, both large and small.

Comments

[Brooklyn Girl]

Happy birthday to Miss T, and all best wishes for you and Beaker.

[luolin]

Here's to a happy second year for Miss T, and a long, helpful hospital stay for Beaker.

[Nors]

Happy Birthday to everyone. I hope and pray that Beaker responses well to the antibiotics.

[well-wisher]

Good luck to all of you, and a big Happy Birthday to Miss T.

[well-wishing lurker hoping for the best]

Just returning to say that you and your family have been in my thoughts, and I hope that Beaker is doing okay.